Showing posts with label ME. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ME. Show all posts

Tuesday 19 March 2024

Still Feeling Like Crap.

 

Every time I think I am getting better, my cough comes back to bite me in the arse. I just can't seem to shake it. I'm tired of being sick. Yes, I know, I shouldn't complain when so many others have it way worse than I do. I'm just feeling like shit and in a complaining mood. 

The problem is when I get sick; the world still goes on around me. I still have to take Mum to her appointments and go to my own. I still have to look after my grandkids while my daughter works. Why is it, that they know when I'm feeling off and will play up like anything? My next three weeks seem to be filled with different appointments for both my mum and myself.

Hearing Specialists, Dentists, Podiatrists, Granddaughter's Birthday, Physio, Dietician, Dr. 2 Easter Bonnet Parades, and Easter, just to name a few of the things I have to plan around for the next few weeks.

On top of it all I've been dealing with a never-ending headache. And weirdly, my ears are ringing so loudly that I'm finding it hard to think straight, Today my house smells wonderful. I made a huge pot of chicken and vegetable soup. I have been thinking about eating it for days but have been too under the weather to cook it. After Mum's hearing appointment this morning. I decided to come home and make it. I'm so glad that I did. It was freaking delicious.

I've been re-reading Taking Chances 1: Lie to Me. I like where it's going, but I totally have to pull the damn thing apart and rework it. Apparently, I have like three different stories going on at the same time. It's just confusing, even to me. I'll figure it out eventually.

Sunday 10 March 2024

Dang it!

 Seriously, I feel like I have been sick for the last month. I started out by nursing everyone else through the twenty-four-hour virus, before succumbing to it myself... I can tell you, I really hate vomiting. Then, no sooner did I get over the first illness. When low and behold, I get a freaking head cold━I just can't freaking win some days. Now my 92-year-old mum has come down with the same damn thing, and our house is sick again. Once we are both better I will have to do a top to bottom, household scrub-down.

Though I have been working━well kind of. I have been re-writing my synopsis and the opening for E.P.I.C. I'm thinking about going in a whole different direction with it. It'll be along the same lines, just different━more to it than I originally planned. I'll probably enjoy writing it more now.


Lately, I have this song on repeat in my head.
It's driving me nuts.

Monday 12 February 2024

Long Day

 

Today I woke up with a massive headache. Nothing has dulled it at all. Not even my strong migraine pills. So because of the headache, I also woke up very tired. The good news is when I weighed in this morning. I hadn't lost any weight, but I also hadn't put any on. So I'm counting that as a win.

I spent this morning taking Mum up to Toowoomba to get her new glasses checked, she only got them two weeks ago, but they seemed off. It turns out they had the wrong prescription in them. So, now we have to wait for another week and a half for the new ones to come back. At least we didn't have to pay for the replacements.

I was going to come home and wash, but it is all overcast, and has been lightly showering. I think I'll do the smart thing and see how tomorrow fares. Nothing worse than not being able to get all the clothes dry.

Soon I'm going to venture into the world of potty training my third granddaughter. I need to buy a heap of little undies to have on hand for her. Thank God I have wooden floors. I'm hoping to have her completely out of nappies by the end of the year. Mainly because nappies are so damn expensive. I was actually supposed to be looking after two of them this afternoon, but lucky for me I get the day off as their dad is home. He'll have them today, and it'll be back to our normal routine tomorrow... I should mention their dad is a long haul trucker, and Mar-Mar (me) looks after the girls (Grace, Harper, & Rae-Rae) when their mum works or is at some other event with one of the kids.

Okay, Later Gates:- I'll talk to you all on a whole other day.

Sunday 11 February 2024

Almost...But Not Quite.

 

This is so true. I'm trying to do better, but it is a work in progress. Crowds still give me anxiety.

I have done a ton more on clearing out my Dropbox. I even managed to write 5K on a story I didn't even know I still had. So I guess it's back in rotation. Currently, it's called: Second Time Around, but I don't think it fits the story So I'll probably change it.

I'm still working at the hula hoop thingy... I seem to struggle with the rhythm for the first ten minutes or so, but after that I do fine. I think it is helping with the aching in my back. And I sweat like you wouldn't believe━not that you needed to hear that. Since starting I have removed two links. It's hard doing it on my own, but I'm getting there. I'm not dieting━just changing the way I eat. Anyone want to join me on this journey. Drop me a line and we can become weight-loss buddies together, better to do it with a friend or a total stranger than struggle through it on your own. We can do weigh-ins. Talk recipes. Even just talk about what's happening, ups and downs. What works━what doesn't. No money needs to be exchanged. I'm purely doing this through sheer determination, kitchen scales, and bathroom scales. With just the food I buy in my weekly groceries, and what exercises I do at home. I'm not paying for gym memberships, diet pills, or any other sort of diet-related thing. The only thing I'm doing is keeping track of my weekly weight, and monthly measurements. The best part is if you want to participate. You can live anywhere in the world, and join in from the comfort of your own home. all I ask is you be honest with your weights and measurements.

Okay, I think I've talked your ears off long enough. I will chat again on a whole other day.

Saturday 10 February 2024

Brain Fart Moments


This is me lately. I swear I can be in the middle of doing something, and then the next minute, I think, now what the f*ck was I in here for? Does anyone else have to walk in and out of a room a dozen or more times, just to remember why the hell you walked in there in the first place?

Hell, some days I get to the point where I misspell a word so badly, that even Google is at a loss. Usually, it is a word I have spelled so often before, and for no reason, I suddenly get it into my head. Sh*t that looks wrong.

Or spend an hour looking for something and you've got it in your hand the whole time━like talking on your phone while you look for your phone, or searching for your glasses while wearing your glasses━that one I do a lot. My granddaughters think it's hilarious, so we end up making a game out of it. LOL, they don't realize Mar-Mar is just getting old.

I know it sounds like I'm just ranting and complaining. I'm not really. More just having a laugh at myself, before I get set to do some more purging in my Dropbox. 

PS: If anyone knows where I misplaced my tape measure, feel free to tell me where it is... LOL, right now I'm blaming its disappearance on Mox the resident ghost.

Friday 9 February 2024

Dang It!

 

I feel like I'm losing my mind. I may have been out of the game for a year, but when did everything change so drastically? I just tried to send yesterday's post to Twitter, which is somehow now X. I totally missed that change of name. Sad to say I'm too scared to even open my WordPress blog to see how much that has changed on me. I think this may take me a little bit to figure out how everything all works now.

Other than that, I'm still going through and decluttering my Dropbox. I'm getting ready to add all the new stuff I've been contemplating about, and working on. I want to make it easy to touch and be accessible. So when I want it, I'll know exactly where it is.

It's been fun rereading all the bits of stories that I have there, and deciding whether to keep them or to put them aside. Some I've decided to meld into other stories. Others will go on the back burner for a little bit. I'll never discard anything fully until I have absolutely no further use for it.

I'm actually trying to figure out a writing list. One that will actually work. I think once my Dropbox is clear then I'll have a better view and be able to see what's right in front of me━so to speak. Wish me luck.

Thursday 8 February 2024

Holy Shyte!!!

 

Let me start by saying I've lived through a year of hell. That would be the best way to begin, but then, it wouldn't be quite accurate. The truth is... I've had a year of being worn the hell out. My whole body was out of sync or something. I've been going to my GP, and he has been helping me get back on track. I'm working on making 2024 the year of me. The one where I get my health up to par, and I don't feel like my body wants to shut down every other week. I know I'm not the only one out there suffering. Hell, I know I'm not even the worst off. Plenty of other people are going through much more than I am.

Although I haven't been on here for the past year, it doesn't mean I haven't been doing some writing. Not a lot, but some. Mostly, I have been outlining new stories. This time around when I start writing. I want to have all my synopsis within reach. I might not always follow said synopsis to the (T), but they are a basic guideline of where I need the story to go, and definitely where I need it to end up, especially if it is part of a series.

The other thing I am in the process of doing is updating this blog and my WordPress one. so eventually you'll start to see changes... I'm also cleaning out my Dropbox. I feel like it is so cluttered. I just want the stuff on there that I'm actually working on. That way when I'm looking for something in a hurry, I don't have to search through everything.

I also have visitors at the moment, so it makes it hard to work when I feel like I need to talk to them. Actually, it's just my sister, and she really wouldn't care if I was in my room working on my computer. but, I look after my three granddaughters while their mum works 2, 3, and almost 6...  They are such a handful, only listen when they want to and I wouldn't trade them for all the quiet in the world. 

Other than that, I still have my bad back. I still have my atrocious migraines. I still have my thyroid condition. I still have horrendous ringing in my ears. I still have arthritis in my hands. I still suffer from cramps all over my body (mostly arms and legs). I still have really sore feet. I'm still overweight (but I've lost 5kg).... On a good note: I still love listening to David Bowie. I still love reading and writing. I really love my new multi-function cooker that I just bought from Aldi. 

And on that note: I will bid you all good night and I will talk to you all again next week, or even in a couple of days, and give you an update on all my decluttering is going on the computer.

Sunday 22 January 2023

Week Three> Week Off

 


Okay, I'm not going to look at it as I've wasted the week by not writing. I've had doctor appointments out of the wazoo this week. From normal our normal GP appointments, to dietician appointments with my granddaughter Grace, and Podiatry appointments with my almost 91-year-old mother. Okay, By tons I may mean four, but they were all at off times, so by the time I either left or returned home I didn't feel like getting on the computer to write... Instead, I watched Netflix: Ghost Wars, Instant Dream Home, Wednesday, & Get Organized with The Home Edit... But if the granddaughters were here, it was usually Boss Baby, The Wiggles, & We Can Be Heroes.

Above is how I keep track of my writing world. It basically tells me what I need to be working on each day. I've planned out the first six months of the year. The list, even though it is numbered; doesn't mean I'm specifically writing them in that order... this planning thing seems to be working so I've decided to do it in my real life as well. Considering I keep track of 7 people's appointments... It really gets tiring.

Here is a little snippet of what just January looks like for me and my lot... And yes, I colour code everything. Much easier for me when I'm trying to find things in a hurry. Trust me, I quite often have to go back through months looking for particular dates of events.

Updates: My foot > is still sore. The doctor doesn't think it isn't too serious. Though, I will have to buy some new shoes with better arch support. I'll have to look until I find a pair I like. As I don't like wearing shoes that velcro up. 

My headaches > well, they are still hanging around, but lately, they have been kind of mild. Though I did have one doozy this past week. The kind where it felt like my vision was swirling, and going in and out of focus.

My Back > Has been good, only a little tender down around the base of my spine. In truth, I've been having more pain with my arms than anything they are aching... not sure what from.

I think I've rambled on enough for one post I'll leave you with a song that has been rattling around inside my head for the last couple of days. Mind yu the first time I heard this guy sing... This is not what I pictured him to look like... But he did bring to life my Doyle Kerwin from my The Lines of Marsden Series.

On that note, I will away for now.
Later Gaters & Catch you all next week.

Sunday 15 January 2023

Week Two: I Have Ouchies...

 

This week I've somehow managed to hurt my damn foot. No clue how I did it, but it hurts like a bitch. I told you I would give you an update on my specialist appointment... Let's just say they must have had a temp working the day they rescheduled me. I was sent to the wrong hospital, (okay, I could manage that). They changed my appointment date when I was almost at the said hospital (now that I had a problem with - I told them they couldn't do that without informing me first. Especially when I didn't live in the same city as the hospital). Then I find out they booked me in on a day when she was only doing diabetic consultations and I was going for my thyroid. (That one I was a little confused about). Turns out the Dr. was in surgery anyway, but at least I wasn't on my lonesome. Three other patients went through the same drama I did... my new scheduled appointment is February 17th at 9:45 am. Which just happens to be my mother's 91st birthday. Let's hope next time it runs smoothly.

Okay onto my weekly writing schedule:-
  1. Cotter Girls 1: TASH 45.2K > added another 3K (DONE)
  2. Cotter Girls 2: RAINE 2K > started on this one
  3. Misty River 1: Calm to my Storm 51.2K > added 5.2K (DONE)
  4. Woden's Wolves MC 1: Rescue Me 9K > started on this one
  5. The Connelly Chronicles 3: Because of You 65K > added 2K
  6. Quaide's Crossing 1: Saving Grace 17K > added 3K
24.2K all up for the week. It's been a hard week for me, but I don't want to fall behind if I can help it. I'll catch you all next week and fill you in on what's been going on.

Later Gaters.

Sunday 8 January 2023

Week One> Update...

 

Well, I started off the week by writing 1K a day on each of the  4 stories I'm currently working on... Yeah, that lasted until Tuesday night. I was managing it okay, but it was a little tough jumping from one storyline to another without stuffing up. So on Wednesday, I decided to work on one story each day, and just alternate them. This is working out much better for me. I have one more read-through of Cotter Girls 1:TASH to see if I have to add to the story anywhere, but I think that one is actually done. It came in just under the wordage I had planned for it. After that, it's just writing up the synopsis and blurbs and submitting it somewhere.

You'll be happy to know I have also stuck to u budget... probably because the grocery shops have stuff all in them...  but that's okay. I'm about to start up my veggie patch again, but this time, I'm doing it all in pots... the hillside was hazardous to my health. I can't count the number of times I fell down that thing. Luckily, there was a fence to stop me at the bottom. 

The weather is stinking hot here. I hate saying it, but God, I wish it was winter already. Though, I'd probably only complain about it being too cold if it were. At least it's good clothes-drying weather. No. I don't have a drier. I depend on the sun to do it for me. Just like the only dishwasher I have is called my hands.

Before I talk to you again, I'll have gone to my thyroid specialist appointment. I'll have to let you all know next week how it panned out. Here's hoping they give me the correct medication and my health can get back on track. 

Later people, take care and see you all next week.

Sunday 1 January 2023

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

 ...WELCOME 2023...

I'd like to start off by saying Happy New Year to everyone. May the year ahead be kinder than the year we just lived through.

This year I'm going to try and think more positive thoughts... and set myself realistic goals... I don't want to be causing myself stress needlessly. So for the last month while I've been out sick I have been working on this year's budget (loose) to keep me headed in the right direction. I've already been sharing some of the other things (monthly planner - to keep track of 6 people 7 pets and two houses)... Yes, I'm my daughter's backup appointment keeper.

My Goals:

1) Finish writing 6 books.
2) Read 10 books off my TBR list.
3) Stick to my budget.
4) Try and be more organized.
5) check in on my blogs more frequently.

Working on now:

1) The Connelly Chronicles 3: Because of You (starting at 55K/100K)
2) Misty River 1: Calm to My Storm (Starting at 35K/50K)
3) Quaide's Crossing 1: Saving Grace (Starting at 5K/50K)
4) Cotter Girls 1: TASH (40K/45K)

Saturday 31 December 2022

It's The End...

 

And by the end, I mean the end of another year. I can tell you I am so looking for this year to be finally over and done with. I'm hoping beyond all hope that 2023, brings me less illness. I still have the cough I can't seem to shake, and worse, I seem to have pulled a muscle in my neck while coughing... Freaking hurts like a bitch.

I got all the stuff I need to get my diary situation sorted out for 2023... when I'm trying to keep track of 6 people throughout the year I need a clear way of doing it... So I have a book I keep in my handbag for writing appointments and notes in, and then I have a monthly desk planner that I'll hang on my wall to keep everything so visual...  Everyone even has their own colour.

I'm really looking forward to writing again, and I have to be strict about my time as I have so much more stuff I also need to get done in 2023. But, I'm trying to make it as easy as possible for myself to stay on track. Feel free to drop me a comment along the way to make sure I'm still heading along the path I've set myself on.

Okay, I'll talk to you all again in the new year.

Thursday 22 December 2022

It could only happen to me

 

I'm having such a run of good luck━not. I go to the doctor with a reoccurring earache and come home with the flu (not Covid). Let's just say, my Christmas is going to be very quiet. I hate having a Summer cold. I just wish I could stop coughing. On the plus side... Mum isn't sick. The heat isn't helping matters. We've had some stinking hot days, and Summer isn't over yet. I need to find my asthma inhaler.

The birds are back in abundance. Lately, we seem to have a lot of corellas, crows, kookaburras, wild ducks, etc. They are so fricken loud. I've even heard a storm bird or two.

The best part about being sick is I can lie in bed and watch the whole Star Wars saga from start to finish... or... the Hobbit and Lord of the Rings. I'm going to have to cook a batch of chicken soup or vegetable soup... something quick and easy.

getting closer and closer to the end of this year, the beginning of next year, and hopefully the start of a better way of living. I have been working on setting myself some realistic personal goals for next year.

Saturday 17 December 2022

My Week

 

My head is pounding today. It was my youngest granddaughter's 1st birthday. It was loud, but it wasn't too hot. But because I wasn't feeling 100%  it was so draining. The kids seemed to enjoy themselves.

Good news: the new handrail our landlord installed at our back stairs, is a godsend and worked so fricken well. So much easy for getting Mum in and out of the house.

Bad news: my specialist appointment has been rescheduled for 4 days later so I'm now going on January 10th. I guess I'll have to wait a little longer.

I watched Wednesday on Netflix... I must admit, I kind of enjoyed it. I hope they make a season 2. I even liked most of the characters. I did figure out who the baddies were early on, but it didn't take anything away from watching it. I guess I'll have to find something else to watch now... Don't suggest Sons of Anarchy because I couldn't get into that show. I just didn't like half the characters.

Still been working on getting my story notes together. It's slow going, but it'll be worth it in the end. At the moment I'm trying to work out a better way to keep things organized in each file... I want each story file to be more uniform. So I can find things more easily when looking for information. I'm thinking the excel files are the best way and then the character files with their picture.

Tuesday 13 December 2022

Touching Base...

I'm still not feeling 100%. I'm hoping after my specialist appointment on 06-Jan-2023 that I'll start to turn everything around. Even if it can alleviate my migraines just a fraction I would be happy. But knowing you're on the wrong dosage of medication, and still having to take it until you see the specialist is doing my head in, which doesn't help with the headaches. Then my back is playing up again, my right ear still hurts, and for some strange reason, the soles of my feet are burning. I know, I know... quit complaining and talk about something interesting.

Well, I survive a spider attack, that sucker was huge. It almost got in my car, and now it's under my car just waiting to get me again. I might have to carry a big can of bug spray... Yes, I still don't like spiders. I just don't understand how they can run so damn fast.

We had another storm last night, and you'll be happy to know that we didn't lose any electrical stuff this time - though I did unplug the tv just to be on the safe side.

We got a new handrail put on the steps out the back (which is really our front door - but seeing as no one except us uses it, it's the back door.)

19 days until the end of the year. So 19 days to get all of my stuff in order before I start writing again. I'm still going through all my handwritten notes. There are just so many. I'm trying to get them all typed into the computer. I've also been trying to update all of my series files etc. Wish me luck.

Thursday 8 December 2022

Aftermath...

 

The aftermath of last night's storm is it blew our TV. and messed with one of our digital clocks. there are also a ton of puddles, branches, and leaves all over our yard... The good news is we have a secondary TV so Mum can still watch her cricket. The puddles will dry up eventually and I can clean up all the branches and leaves. The bad news is, it didn't seem to cool it down any, so I'm still sweating in places I'd rather not.

The heat makes it hard to want to finish spring/summer cleaning my house. I don't understand how the crap keeps accumulating. I swear I throw it away/donate it, and it comes back tenfold... it's like a conspiracy or something. I also swear it will never happen again, but it always does and makes a liar out of me. The good thing about this decluttering all-season cleaning is that I have been finding heaps of story notes that I've had stashed around the house.

I'm trying to get myself more organised for next year where my writing is concerned. But honestly, between the heat and being ill over the last year... it's been too hard to stay focused enough to even think. so for the last month, I've been telling myself I need to pull up my big girl panties and get the job done. Set a plan in place and stick to it.

Probably something easier said than done. I have to take the advice I keep giving my own granddaughters when they struggle to do something "It just takes practice, and the more you practice the better you'll get."

So has everyone got all their Christmas shopping completed? I have one left to buy but seeing as it is part birthday━part Christmas I don't actually have to have it until the middle of January. other than that all the important ones are bought.

Wednesday 7 December 2022

It's So Bloody Hot

 

Today it felt like we were in the middle of a heatwave. It got to 38°, and I felt like I was melting. though right now I can hear thunder so hopefully it will break and cool down some.

I went and did some grocery shopping today. the shops were pretty bare in some spots. and the prices seem to be getting higher ad higher. I decided in 2023, gonna shop smarter. meal plan and only buy for those meals. buy the big bags of veg even if I have to split it with family. that way we can at least split the costs as well.

Okay, I've just seen lightning so I better get off of here and unplug. I don't want to cause any damage to my computer. talk again soon.

Tuesday 6 December 2022

Tired of being sick...

Every damn time I think I'm finally on the mend, something else comes out to bite me on the arse and drag me down into the land of the sick. I seem to be on a constant roll. I throw my back out, then I get the flu (not Covid), then I can't kick the cough for months, then I get a double ear infection, a touch of Ross River Fever, then I get some viral infection (I should tell you I really hate spewing), then I throw my back out again from spewing... on top of all that I have a migraine from hell... I now have another inner ear infection.

Then to top off my year of what else can they throw at me. I find out that for the last 12 years they have been giving me the wrong thyroid medication and now I have to go and see a specialist... which I can't get in to see until January 6th, 2023... I'm hoping once I have the correct diagnosis and the correct medication is given, my body will start acting the way it is supposed to. I'm tired of being tired.

I shouldn't complain because no matter how bad I think I have it there are always those out there that have it worse off than me. I have it really mild compared to some and I should be grateful. 

I have been working on organizing all of my notes for next year so I can fully immerse myself back into writing again. Today I have been working on Misty River1: Calm to My Storm. This is the first book in a new MF series that I have been working on. At this stage, I plan on three, but there very well could be more. you never know with me.

Wednesday 26 October 2022

Random Thoughts...

I've decided from now on. I'm going to  do what's right for me. there are only 9 more weeks until the end of 2022. So when 2023 rolls around my new attitude in life is going to be getting my own life in order.

Next year I want my head to be in a better more clearer space. Right now it seems to be a jumbled chaotic mess. I can't even think coherently enough to write, and I really want to be able to write again.

I need to go and do my groceries tomorrow. It'll be the first time in about a month. I need to restock. before I go I suppose I'll have to clean out my pantry and freezer to see what I actually have. I hate it when I buy stuff that I already have. My new plan of action is to shop smarter... I'm even going to start doing meal plans because groceries are getting damn expensive. I'm only going to buy what I need for each meal. Gone are the days when we needed to stock up for a seven-year siege.

I've been watching shows on being more organized. In my life = around the house, and just in life in general. I'm still in the midst of decluttering all my stuff. I don't understand why I have so much. I seriously don't need it. I haven't even used most of it in almost a year. It's just taking up space that could ultimately be used for something else.


Today's feel-good tune to get you in a happy mood. Sometimes you just need something a little upbeat and peppy, and today for me, it's Racey.

Tuesday 25 October 2022

Getting There

I babysat my grandkids today, while their parents moved some more moving. only a couple of more loads to go and it will all be done... anyway, getting back to my story. They were mostly well-behaved. Let me amend that... the eldest and the youngest were. The middle child, which I have lovingly dubbed Hurricane. Well, she was a whole other story. I don't think she even knows the meaning of the word quiet. And yes, I know she is only two, but boy can she get loud. Yet, she's so darn cute when she's doing it. Sometimes I wish it was legal to duct tape her to a chair so I could get five minutes of peace and quiet, but I bet she'd figure her way out of it within the first minute. Today Hurricane nearly dislocated my freaking thumb. The pain almost put me on my arse. Now hours later it is still aching, but nowhere like it was when it first happened.

I'm still so bloody tired from helping with my daughter's move. It feels like all my bones and muscles are aching. I think I may have pulled something.

The weather is heating up around here, even if it is still raining. I'm thinking it's time to start up the aircon for summer. If we don't we are going to swelter, and I don't like to swelter at any time.

My new glasses should be arriving any day now, and I can't wait for them to arrive. Hopefully, they'll help me see a little better. Especially my new sunglasses.

I'm rewatching the X-Files I haven't watched them in years. So far, I'm enjoying them. I tried watching Sons of Anarchy, but I'm not sure whether I like it or not. So I stopped.

I've been working on E.P.I.C.1: What Hides Behind The Shadows trying to get a start on next year's body of work. Like I said, I'm not sure where I'm headed, but at the moment the storyline is flowing and that's all I can say. I'm also still working on Brothers McCrieve MC1: Justice.